The Life I Owe

The Revelation

I gasped the worn and tattered work,

Its pages brittle to the touch;

The ink was faded, but defined

Each word I drank, deriving much.

Before my disbelieving eyes

A group of words converged on me;

They forced me to lay down the work –

I turned to face what I should see.

Within the “glass” I saw the corpse,

A ghastly gray glowed in the night;

But colors suddenly pierced my gaze,

The Word had brought my place to Light.

The truths so old and veiled before

Were now made vivid, clear, and true;

I glanced into the mirror once more

And found that all had been made new.

My eyes were opened to the fact

That God, the One on high, wants me!

What’s more, a purpose He has planned

For what my life shall one day be.

O God, a brand-new me I see!

it has been a week now since the start of summer classes..

well, that is for them who actually took the summer classes but not for me who cancelled my subjects during the registration

and uhmm..that was for some reason that I’d rather keep to myself (bet you wouldn’t want to hear anything like “I was just walking along the acad oval when suddenly a voice inside me told me not to take summer classes anymore”)

here’s just some things I’m going to do this vacation lest I become a bum again (like I don’t want to remember when because it did me no good)

• finish the Chronicles of Narnia…I’m down to the last two books…really enjoying myself more than I think I will and I’m learning a lot also

• clean my room and if I’d have a brilliant idea I might as well decorate it or maybe I could repaint it purple

• fill up my journal…I became inconsistent because I got wounded up with journalizing accounts receivables and payables…I’ve only a few pages to write my thoughts on and then I’m going to buy me a new one

• get a license

• tutor my 5-year old cousin..my aunt’s just glad to hear I wasn’t taking summer classes..this isn’t bad at all because we made a great deal

• go to laguna and get a good swim

• regular exercise or try to jog around our subdivision every morning…I’m almost always infuriated whenever my brother teases me I’m getting fat

• learn to cook…and by this I meant real cooking not just cooking rice (and I’m actually craving for chocolate chip cookies at this very moment…not that it has anything to do with it)

• master the guitar

• learn photoshop or flash; and

• most importantly, make myslef of use in the house…do the laundry perhaps or iron clothes or wash the car..well on second thought I’m just going to resort to cooking or setting the table or maybe washing the dishes

hmmm…as I well know, i probably won’t accomplish all of this..but one thing’s for sure I’m going to have a good rest this summer and I believe that’s what God wants me to have.. He’s preparing me for battle..i don’t know when, I just know it’ll be soon

and yes of course…spend a lot of time in quietness and trust…and try to find myself (again?) ‘coz it seems in this past few weeks I’ve been lost inside of me and I feel (as it is said, “don’t depend on feelings”..yet I still feel it anyway) there’s going to be something that’ll make me be off my head

by Stacie Orrico

As I rest against this cold, hard wall
Will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find the war has just begun

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out, and start again
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

Will my weakness for an hour make me suffer for a lifetime?
Is there anyway to be made whole again?
If I’m healed,renewed, and find forgiveness find the strength I’ve never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God’s plan?

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out, and start again
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

He took my life into his hands and it turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance
It’s there I’ve finally found

That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me
Oh Thank You for my chance to start again

I did things because I knew I could succeed

I didn’t want to do other things because I feared failure

But because I didn’t take the risk and proved to myself that I wouldn’t fail

I will not have the chance to realize what could have happened

But then there are those that I took that I will never regret in my whole life

I’ve come to realize that I can do anything I set my mind to if I’m willing to go through the process.. if I just have faith

yeah, faith

I already took two philosophy classes and this is how they define faith

“FAITH is without logical proof”

..oh heck, I suppose that means I’m an illogical person if I put my faith on something

Well, illogical it is.. I think faith is personal

I believe there are a lot of things in this world that can’t be explained

Faith is no mere example

It is being sure of the things we hope for and certain of things we do not see

it seems to be a remarkable force that brings about an experience of complete, total inner peace and contentment

It somehow gives us an empowerment to accomplish the seemingly impossible or the ordinary extraordinarily

a mountain-moving faith, that is

just be careful where you put your complete trust on..